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5 postcards from nowhere:postcard 1:

somewhere between here and
there i realised: good things don't
happen because of 52. they happen
because we let them.

postcard 2:

and baby i'm afraid of a lot of things.

like the way your fingers read my skin like
braille in the dark. and i may not have any more
secrets left that way.

postcard 3:

but you still like to explore every corner of
my spine.

postcard 4:

i have a drawer full of foxgloves and a
sandpit of forget-me-nots. i

love your stretching tree-branch arms.

postcard 5:

you are magic, you are magic, i say. and i am
lost in the ocean of your eyes.

look at the clouds todaywhen i met you, i stopped writing. i also stopped waking up to a face full of post it notes saying things like its bad luck to see the woman before the driving test, or my house smells like apple cider and bluebottles have eyes, or i've got static in my arms. i stopped feeling sorry and i stopped falling down the stairs. i noticed the stars at night could have a story and you could have taken the ocean and put it in your eyes. i also stopped writing.

when i met you, i stopped trying to be a nice person and just was. when i met you, i discovered post it notes and then i couldn't use them. i realised my house was not just a picture of a house

cupboardand last night i felt like the weight of paper and
then i felt like i would sink into everything i touch.
and yesterday i thought that maybe a bottle of
red wine and 3am and then too many post it notes
and staring at the ceiling from the tiles in the

kitchen would make the tiger hiding in the cupboard
go away. and if you could line up miles of mountains,
that's how far away i felt from myself. even though,
i could see me in the mirror and i could hear me
saying stop it stop it stop it. you are not here any
more. you are not there any more, and suddenly

i was sitting cross-legged on the floor of the living
room. watching the telev

closer1.
she kept the christmas tree
up well past march and its a
strange thing,

your voice
broken and sad
and

the words, no one understood.
but the silence.

oh, the

silence.

2.
and i hum in this
empty house and

your call

echoes and
echoes. the phone
keeps ringing and i
say. i say:

sorry.

and you say:

don't. just --

don't.

3.
but here i am and
there. there you are.

your face as delicate
as your tears today. and
i touch you as if

you're a paper boat,
about to float away. and i

tiptoe

around your thoughts,
afraid i'll wake

you up.

4.
my clothes smell like
you. my skin

smells like you. and
there is a dead tiger

Lovely knees, scraped elbowsshe wishes she has lovely knees, instead she has a lovely
way to see the world. she doesn't believe in umbrellas, only
the stars in the midnight sky and the raindrops running down
her neck, arms, legs, spine.

she knows things that most will find useless: there are more
stars in outer space than there are grains of sand on earth. dogs
have over three hundred facial expressions, mostly made with
their ears. the average person will spend two weeks waiting
for the traffic lights to change in their lifetime.

she wonders: what if stars are just dead pixels in the sky? what
if they are specks with worlds living in them? that would mean
t

make me stopsomething about nothing:

one.

you know, the real tree branches just
don't strectch as far as your arms.

two.

you know, one day i'll be able to get
that cow into my bedroom, up the stairs
with a trail of grass and cupcakes, and he'll
eat grass off my pink bedsheets and i'll
take some awesome photos.

three.

i like to write footones because nobody reads them:

i love you. i love you like nothing i've ever loved before.
i love you forever and i won't be able to tell
you that anytime soon.

four.

dear dan,

i love you i lvoe you i love you.

five.

my cats are sleepiong on thecouch. and i am
writing away words fro my heart. and no

twelve hours green.he calls me and tells me
that his toothbrush
is an ocean green like
his fading bedroom
walls. and i call and
think that i dont have
a favourite number. but
i dont even know what
that means.

we should spend twelve
hours watching the
clouds fly past
and twelve staring at
the fragments of shining
rocks plastered across
the sky, until we leave
a dent in the grass
in the shape of
the different type of
world we live in.

i paint my hands in
speechless patterns because
colours always spoke better
than words.

lemon cakethis house isn't made out of
a mess. this house is
made out of:

a sinking bathroom floor
because she sighs and i

lose count. shower curtains
you need to water and rust
that doesn't wash out

of the tiles.

it is made out of:

a telephone made for hanging
up because she doesn't
want to talk to her sister.

and mirrors to remind you
that

you are a beautiful

broken

thing.

it is made out of:

sorry notes and scribbles and
a windy day. it sits next to
the other houses made of

secrets and sorrow and stories
and rooftops and bathroom
tiles.

it is made out of:

kitchen tiles, too. they are
black and white and white and
black.

not what you wantedi wanted to tell you about
yesterday. and how i saw
a shooting star and a face
on the moon that reminds
me of my grandfather.

i wanted to tell you how
i fell on the grass at
sunset and it was poetically
beautiful. but you'd
only tell me that i was
beautiful and then let the wind
blow away what my eyes see.

i wish you loved looking
up at the fragments of
rocks scattered across
the sky. or loved to watch the
clouds go past for twelve hours
straight, but you'd get
bored after two.

i wish i had asked you
what your favourite number
is and what colour your
toothbrush was. my number
is 52. and now you can think
of me every ti

i was thinking maybe..October 10:
I tried calling her today, but
the phone was left for seven
rings too long. She
doesn't like, she is afraid of

dialing numbers and jewellery and
the sound of bugs flying too
close to her ear.

She probably would have laughed
at the thought of dreaming the
day away. Because she can't stop.

She can't stop to meet me at
the rooftops. To meet me and
hold my hand. To meet me and
watch the sky move sideways.

October 16:
Today I called him, to say, to
say that I wanted to drown,
not in sorrows or swimming pools, but in
the ocean, because it's so peaceful

down there. Only I didn't. I
didn't breathe. Or speak. I
didn't

secrets1.
dear mum,

you secretly want her faults so
you can have something to say
you were like her, you have

something of hers. only
you don't.

2.
dear mum,

i think her faults skipped you
and went straight to me. i
like to collect things i'll

never touch again, collect thoughts
and collect pasts only to
stash them in the cupboard

so i dont open the doors.

3.
dear mum,

its the silences in between
that makes me think of her. and
i think of her everyday

i do i do. i even started
wearing her pocket watch
again because it makes me

feel like im doing something
good.

4.
dear mum,

i know you deserved
the better

half of me

lon

mad scientistO
he mixes 'freedom'
with 'love' and
pours the mess
in a bottle labelled
'oxymoron'.

(he likes to think he's multi-talented,
and illusions are the best emulsifiers.)

.

Hg
his potion shelve crashes
to the basement floor
every single day.

(he has always been this clumsy.)

.

Kr
he takes notes
of all his experiments
and then destroys them.

(he wants to be known
for his successes. not his failures.)

.

Es
he thought he knew all the recipes
for gold, love, life, sleep,
but there just is no such thing
as magic.

(he is not as smart
as his glasses and lab coat might suggest.)

.

S
he preserves
his former loves in formalde

blowing bubbles.last night we
watched the clouds
fall.

and you said:
you are beautiful.

and i am afraid
that i might one day
actually believe you

and

sometimes i feel like
i'm just this big bundle
of problems and i have
been searching and
i can't find the answers.

you told me that the answers
are in blowing bubbles and
tying shoe laces and chasing
dreams, but honestly i just

don't

understand. i have tried
to chase my dreams but

they only run away.

.

you told me that you can't
stand how i sound when i
give up and the hope
is knocked out of me and
you can't stand me when
i am busy counting
the empty spaces in the
walls and

the death of a poet.her heart's stopped, they said.

what?

it just...stopped, they said.

huh?

it was beating, and then, there
was this massive, cracking
noise, like--it sounded like an
entire world, an entire dimension
just coming apart, like one of
God's bones, maybe,
in some kind of badly-written cataclysm
and she started bleeding, er--ink
everywhere--there was just ink
everywhere, she was leaking
words all over the place--
and, well, then her heart stopped.
we think--well, er that is--

you think what?

well, we think it might be broken,
they said.

no reply.6:33pm:

i deleted you from my
phone. so goodbye.
[i wont miss you]

7:00pm:

no reply. because my
silence speaks more than
words ever could.
[even though you never
thought so]

1:02am:

remember that time we
were tangled and drowning
so far in our own
thoughts and love?
[i cried]

2:15am:

no reply. because i
know you remember.
[but you're not smiling
anymore]

4:20am:

i left something outside
your door.
[its your heart in
the shape of a book]

4:22am:

no reply. i ran outside
in shorts and socks
to grab it before
it froze.
[at least you took care of it]

5:30am:

no reply. you always thought
i looked beautiful.
[but i

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by ~vampire-zombie, Jan 29, 2009, 8:08:20 PM
Literature / Poetry / Human Nature / Free Verse

dear me,

you do not have a terrible heart. you do not
have sad eyes and love is not a war you need
to win. sometimes i feel like disappearing, but
remember:

we are never really alone.

dear me,

every now and then, you can close your eyes
and still find your way. remember to breathe
because you did not sink a paper boat and you
are not floating underwater. you already know
the answer to the question you are looking for.

dear me,

remember the small things, like the writing in
the borders of pages. see the things that
everyone else misses. listen to your thoughts
and then lose yourself.

dear me,

laugh until it makes you cry. see things you've
never seen in people before. stop worrying about
your hair and call him just to say i miss you.

dear me,

do something different and you will be surprised.
let yourself enjoy the sunrise. try and say toy-
boats ten times in a row without tangling it up.
have silly conversations about cows eating grass
off your bed in your room.

dear me,

you are never really alone. you do not have sad
eyes. your eyes are

glowing.

sincerely yours,

poem.

reminders i carry in my hand:by ~vampire-zombie

Literature / Poetry / Human Nature / Free Verse

and he said to me:

you do not have sad eyes.
your eyes are

glowing.

finally made something from my journal: [link]

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~tanch0708 Aug 2, 2012

This is really nice :3

~dancewaterdance98 Feb 27, 2012 Hobbyist Photographer

THIS IS DEEP! IT MADE MY DAY, UM NIGHT...ITS LIKE 1030; ANYWAY, LOVE IT!

~forgetyoself Jan 18, 2011 Hobbyist General Artist

this is exactly what i needed.
when my words fail me, these words cannot fail me.

~Ita-Pinkpony Nov 12, 2010

Awwww

~ThisBonelessOne Aug 30, 2010

Hello, thank you for making this poem, I was actually having a pretty bad day but when I read this, it made me smile.

~Laflora-Cups-of-teas Aug 17, 2010

lol- your so amazing.. seriously you write and draw like my best friend,
gosh! and the things that you've written in this poem are things that me and her talk about all the time
just random, wacky stuff.- like "have silly conversations about cows eating grass off your bed in your room." lol-
this is great btw. you have a real talent i think...

~Fire-Link Aug 11, 2010

Good poem. What do you mean "love is not a war you need to win"?

~Quelythe Jan 1, 2010 Hobbyist Writer

I +faved this a long while back, but I came across it again today and was happy to note it hasn't lost any of its magic; it still gets to me every single time.

Looking forward to seeing more of your lovely work.

~LianFex Nov 24, 2009 Student Filmographer

_{That was so inspirational.
Thank you for the beautiful work.}

~LolaIsmysecondname Oct 25, 2009

i feel like i need to write a poem like that to myself

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